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About demand

June 5 1984
Karachai-Cherkess
Russia (Soviet Union)


        So today Luba again started the discussion on the subject of demand. She has got it: she works with the books, seeking for knowledge, she likes Light, enjoys it, waiting for it to come, doing her utmost to continue meditation. But when difficulty arises, she begins to demand. First she is timid, then becomes more persistent. While she is modest, and begging - she deserves help. But being continuously fed she becomes offended, proud, tense, representing lower Capricorn that is trying to achieve the peak of Light (Luba's zodiac is Capricorn). She doesn't understand yet that lower Capricorn will never accept Christ, because Light cannot come through coagulation, it cannot come through rigidity.

        If a man lived through all his life without being demanding to somebody or something he would be saved. The absence of demand on the zone of mind - it is the absence of achieving mind, it is a peaceful, attending mind. Not demanding on the zone of throat - this is the absence of the image of your own self, not feeding the image of your own self. The absence of demand on the zone of heart - it's a clean, devoted heart without a cry of a for forlorn. If the heart, calling for Christ, Light, Love feels deprived, and abandoned, if it is stressed with a hysteria of unfair sharing, how can it accept the impulse of Christ?

        The devil does not claim for riches, for prestige, he claims for Light. That's Light - but he demands it! When we demand Light, the Light can descend to meet our demand, and by this It will feed our own selfishness, but our own selfishness is nothing but the cell of his body.

        We begin meditation and we know that the blessing current will come if we relax. Why are we never relaxed? "To be spiritual" - that is how we call it. Not searching for it, but being it! It means that susceptibility should be habitual norms for us to allow blessing enter! Mind that its susceptibility that demands - not you. If you come to learn and you are aware of how the process looks like, why then you appeal to Somebody higher than you? If it is your own selfishness, not your susceptibility is watching the process it means that you come not to change but to steal and use. It means that the final point, the final tune is yours but not Master's. If you are born into a new evolution, you love you pray, you supplicate for it to come and accept you. I can appeal Light, I can cry in my prayer, I understand that Light is higher than me, and it knows the time to come, but if it doesn't come -it means I am to blame, I am not ready. Can I regulate the Actions of a more higher Being? Can I see deeper than Master? Probably I just feed on His love?

        I don't mean you must be pity for yourself: "I am worthless - no chance for me!"

        That is the other side of pride. Being satiated enough such man would immediately exclaim "I am - great!"

        Not -"I am worthless", but merely -"I love You. I fully realise Your Greatness, I know Your Light, I know your competence. How can I allow myself, being so small, demand more?! I am not humiliated myself I simply know the law of evolution and I follow it".

        Particularly dangerous is your demand in meditation when you are involved in a spiritual practice because you pretend this demand is justified by your search, your righteous goals and noble choice. And the result is that you come not to die as a personality in order to become a Soul, fulfilling the hardest labour of an evolutionary dash, but your personality comes to get Light are present itself as a gift for Light, as something that Light needs. And now just think, isn't it a trick of a temporary lower nature, eating up what doesn't belong to it? Isn't it just the way the devil feeds on you?

        About the demand to ourselves. Here we also must be careful. How can I be demanding even to myself, when, say, from the astrological point of view, I present a fixed picture of Cosmos with my day and hour of birth that overlaps the new pictures of Cosmos, daily changing its pattern? Suppose, yesterday accepted a certain law for myself and today I am trying my best to follow this law in my behaviour - but today Cosmos has a new "step", a new gesture. It is turning, changing, but you, its cell, do not change because yesterday you understood something, you promised, you planned and placed yourself in a position of demand. And no doubt, you will be ground to dust by the programme of the Leader, the Dancer. By the programme of your own Spirit willy-nilly, early or late if you don't learn how to follow the sanctions of an evolutionary greater source, you, as his cell, will drop out of the its organism. Imagine that your hand disobeys you: you reach for an object to hold it, but your hand drops down, you want to shake hands with somebody, but it wouldn't move. It disobeys you, it doesn't help, and it can let you down at a crucial moment. When a fox's paw is caught in a trap, the fox bites its paw off to rescue the whole organism.

        The organism of the Whole knows that we are - the part of it. If me behave in a wrong way in order to survive it removes us aside, throws us into Death, into "Outer Darkness", throws all those "acme's of creation" that claim themselves the peak of the conscience developing process.

        The astrological chart of the day that you consider every morning - is the truly state of Solar Logos. Meditating on it, you ought to know that it is the Highest Deity for you. You mustn't draw it carelessly, offhandedly. Mandala of the day is the icon of the Solar Deity. It's His icon, so you must draw it with reverence. Every day He shows us His Dance as new "steps" of planets combinations. You ought to be open, sensitive to accurately reveal Him on your level of life.

        If you are in the center of conscience, in God, you are God Himself. He (that is you) dances His "pa" through many people and then in the centre of every being you can find yourself. It means that the chart of birth of another person is the display of the same essence but in another part of the Dance. Do planets substitute other planets? Or the laws of their interrelations are different? They have just moved into different position. Your Central Being made a new move. When people argue, argue the "pa" of the same dance. One shouts: "My pa is genuine". Another: "No, it's mine!" But it is God, Shiva, Devil - who dances! Watching the dance of Logos you must learn to love different "pa" of your own dance. Only then the people will enjoy meeting each other. The people will be Souls, Spirits, Gods. The Higher is Human Being, the more he is in Essence, in the Whole. That is such a safe, happy union! How can I dispute with my own wove or demand?

        That is why the demand even to yourself is impossible. Neither to others. And generally, don't be demanding! Merely be aware of Light. To trust Light is the most safe in Cosmos. It is not a demand. I cannot say that I demand to myself that I must love God. You cannot make demands in love. I love Him. I cannot stay without Him. He - is realisation of my existence, He is my Light, destroying me and saving me. There is no demand in it. Demand - is a crazy riot of a part against the Whole. I only listen, I only love. Recognising, understanding, appeal, accepting sanctions! With all my efforts I am trying to hear the Life of the Whole (as far as It opens to me), in order not to become "the bitten off paw".

        Let it be your precept:

        I choose the most High, the most Sacred for me at a present stage and dissolving in it, I serve for it, I give myself up to It. I am never demanding to the Highest, neither to my own self, nor to people. I have nothing to demand, I only LOVE the HIGHEST. This is the law of Cosmos. This is the law of surviving conscience.


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